The Inpromptu Post

2008 has been an awesome year, and it seems to be so for most people (not that Bryanboy=most people, but then again.) I think Ive matured exponentially while in JC, which I feel is one of the most lethal combinations of work and leisure simply because there is all work and no leisure, and the bulk of us get pushed way beyond extreme trying to make it out of the A levels with sanity attached.

But we all have, and while it was just as difficult and as shitty as we thought it would have been, especially with all the prep talk by the teachers and our enthusiastic principal, we have overcome the A levels. No matter how i do, no matter what results i get, i never will regret going to SR and meeting the people i adore, respect and cherish so much, even up till now. Friendships take on new heights in adversity, and some do to a level I would have never dreamt of even encountering.

Maybe it's because of how I screwed up my secondary life so bad, with the only valuable things Ive taken from it being Jingboy, experience and friends in soccer, being able to play volleyball, and pockets of friends here and there like Jaslyn. Living a self-centered, self-fulfilling life has robbed me of my own self-respect, my own self-conscience. While Im sure Im nowhere near perfect now in this area, as Deb can gladly attest to, I have proven that I can change, and I have, and that I will continue to do so.

The fruits of something as difficult as change are priceless-- people understand that your knowledge of yourself is not prized above true friendships (that at times can be excruciatingly painful) and that both parties, like two swords, are willing be honed through constant sharpening and close contact. Sometimes, these kindred partnerships last forever.

Ive started 2009 with a blast with my trip to Batam, but beyond that I hope that 2009 is, if not just as agonizingly dear as 2008, then perhaps more so. Maybe heightened fulfillment will come in the form of realised resolutions, of which i have a few to start with: to not be in debt, to be less bitchy, to be more giving.

And now I shall post my trip to Batam because my laptop and table has been rocking up and down all these while and it's making it difficult to concentrate. Bad side effects from taking the cruise. :))