I just realised
I don't want be who i am now in the future. And as ironic as it sounds--
Let's hope my earning capacity enables me to do more than just wander incessantly around unidentified blogs in search of clothes that i cant pay for and will not make a damn difference in my life.
I think i just might want to commit to something more than just A-levels related this year; because if im afraid i'll never do it if i keep putting it off.
And lastly, Jingxin does bring out the best and worst in me. Sometimes i just wish i had a girl bff too :(((
Friday, May 30, 2008
Ditto that!
"But one of them has got to be the GENUINE friendship that we have between each other. There was no need for any farce, to be 'enthu' or anything like that. Between us, we don't rate friendships. We don't judge friendships based on the enthusiasm of the person.
People don't have to be pushed and pushed to come along for our outings. That is because we understand that we are friends, and being friends, we were willing to take the initiative to let each other know that they are appreciated. We don't take each other for granted. "
taken from Jingxin's blog, applied to today's mini-class outing.
Its about quality, not quantity. Relationship, not experience.
Didn't matter that not everyone was there, because if it did then we'll all be superficial childish bastards.
And Im so glad... we're not.
Next time we have a class outing, its ok to say you're not going... but its ok to come too alright? :)
Love from Lisa, the proud 1A02-2A02er. Noo to forget the mascot hahaha!
"But one of them has got to be the GENUINE friendship that we have between each other. There was no need for any farce, to be 'enthu' or anything like that. Between us, we don't rate friendships. We don't judge friendships based on the enthusiasm of the person.
People don't have to be pushed and pushed to come along for our outings. That is because we understand that we are friends, and being friends, we were willing to take the initiative to let each other know that they are appreciated. We don't take each other for granted. "
taken from Jingxin's blog, applied to today's mini-class outing.
Its about quality, not quantity. Relationship, not experience.
Didn't matter that not everyone was there, because if it did then we'll all be superficial childish bastards.
And Im so glad... we're not.
Next time we have a class outing, its ok to say you're not going... but its ok to come too alright? :)
Love from Lisa, the proud 1A02-2A02er. Noo to forget the mascot hahaha!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
And (thank God!) Life goes on
While you guys were studying econs deb and i had to contend with being around each other from 9 to 6 daily for one whole week! (which made art a whoooole lot easier to deal with yayayaay)
And there was once we saw a cat in school! Hi Miaomiao!
The best capture of Miaomiao with (truly) the worst of deb.
Last friday Jacq and i went to catch this water-play at the opening of the Singapore Arts Festival-- FANTASTIC i tell you. Lousy pics; get better ones at Jacq's blog :)
And i had poofy hair for once yay! And i looove jacq. Anyway there was this other guy with us Chio Hershun i think but its easier if you think of "Chio Hersheys" hahaha! btw he was sooo infatuated with Jacq's canon cam that it got a bit... unnerving. haha!
But apparently he remembers me from primary school! how nice! no piccies of him though haha.
Too fascinated with my poofy hair to care about the awesomnosity of thiswhatsit hotel FULLERTON HOTEL'S toilet!!! which had an armchair IN the toilet hahaha.
And while exams are driving me nuts,
though fighting for sanity has reached levels of the exact opposite,
Life goes on.
xoxoxo
While you guys were studying econs deb and i had to contend with being around each other from 9 to 6 daily for one whole week! (which made art a whoooole lot easier to deal with yayayaay)
And there was once we saw a cat in school! Hi Miaomiao!
The best capture of Miaomiao with (truly) the worst of deb.
Last friday Jacq and i went to catch this water-play at the opening of the Singapore Arts Festival-- FANTASTIC i tell you. Lousy pics; get better ones at Jacq's blog :)
And i had poofy hair for once yay! And i looove jacq. Anyway there was this other guy with us Chio Hershun i think but its easier if you think of "Chio Hersheys" hahaha! btw he was sooo infatuated with Jacq's canon cam that it got a bit... unnerving. haha!
But apparently he remembers me from primary school! how nice! no piccies of him though haha.
Too fascinated with my poofy hair to care about the awesomnosity of this
And while exams are driving me nuts,
though fighting for sanity has reached levels of the exact opposite,
Life goes on.
xoxoxo
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Brain Drain And the clock strikes at 2.50pm
In the library now with earphones that aren't playing anything and no one around me. well, at least within a 2m radius (ARGHH MAXXX KEEEIILL MEEE). :/
Three questions that came out for the first History paper; and i didn't study any of them. in fact, i studied probably everything else other than those three. whoopee. but at the very least i could still write sufficiently enough to...pass?
Math was more lenient, not too bad considering i attempted every one of those bloody 12 questions even though my brain was fried. And that the only amount of studying i had done was half an hour ealier "re-capping" my notes.
ahhh i feel better already. now's time to chow, and then start on History part II-- SEA.
Whee.
In the library now with earphones that aren't playing anything and no one around me. well, at least within a 2m radius (ARGHH MAXXX KEEEIILL MEEE). :/
Three questions that came out for the first History paper; and i didn't study any of them. in fact, i studied probably everything else other than those three. whoopee. but at the very least i could still write sufficiently enough to...pass?
Math was more lenient, not too bad considering i attempted every one of those bloody 12 questions even though my brain was fried. And that the only amount of studying i had done was half an hour ealier "re-capping" my notes.
ahhh i feel better already. now's time to chow, and then start on History part II-- SEA.
Whee.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Unwritten Vocal Training during &%^$ Exams
If you cant watch everything, at least fast forward to 3:00! Whooo love the long note!
there's another version by a more popular (i think) girl on youtube called Esmee, you can click on the link to check her out. The special thing about her is that she always gets to meet and sing with the real artistes of the songs she covers-- but personally i prefer this girl who's having fun singing :))
Hahhaa now all i need is... a good voice, a webcam and of course, another gazillion bucks. sweeeet.
If you cant watch everything, at least fast forward to 3:00! Whooo love the long note!
there's another version by a more popular (i think) girl on youtube called Esmee, you can click on the link to check her out. The special thing about her is that she always gets to meet and sing with the real artistes of the songs she covers-- but personally i prefer this girl who's having fun singing :))
Hahhaa now all i need is... a good voice, a webcam and of course, another gazillion bucks. sweeeet.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
So what if ive done well for all my previous exams.
So what?
Now that i finally know that im in deep shit, all my mother can say is how she is worried at my apparent "failure" due to my "decline". and how do you define this "decline"? by my watching of American Idol, just because it airs at 10pm ("too late!" she says). Just because I believe, very deeply, in having my Saturdays off. Just because i believe im not a machine, i cant work fucking 7 days a week;
just because i believe im HUMAN.
Great. Now even she doesnt believe in me. You know sometimes i think even though i dont think i can make it sometimes, it's always these few people building the foundations of my support that pushes me on. Yet...
Yet, stuff happens eh. I guess this is what happens when you stop running your race. Some people try to motivate you while running past, others who've always had this thing against you give you a kick or two, and no matter what happens, your mother's always there to give you an earful.
you know, i really wonder, what if i ever became an artist? What if i ever become a writer? Will i still be able to retain that same support ive been having over the years, not earning the same type of income as a lawyer or a doctor? Should i just have been some normal science student who'd grow up to love physiotherapy as much as her mother did? Well too bad (maybe for me more than anybody) life obviously doesn't work the way you want it all the time.
Actually, today i was supposed to blog about what happened on my way out of school after art.
While walking out, this mentally disabled boy (maybe about primary 5) was walking towards me, waving to someone/thing. I walked past him thinking of my school work, my screwed examinations, everything else except... him, i guess. then suddenly,
"Jie jie! Jie jie!"
I turned around and there he was, behind me.
"Hello, Hello!" He was right in front of me but he was shouting happily, waving.
"Hello." I smiled at him and waved back, but he wasn't satisfied with that. Repeating his "hellos" again, he waved his palm and touched his fingers to mine. I was surprised, but not overly perturbed.
I walked away, and then after 5 seconds or so i heard it again. "Jie Jie!" This time i wasn't sure whether he was referring to me, or whether i should respond. but after he repeated it i turned around. And from the distance he said,
"Jie Jie you are pretty."
And this was supposed to be about how this touched me deep within, not because someone had called me pretty, but because it gave me a reality check. While all this time the only things i had to say about my appearance was how long my face was, how big my bum was, how high my forehead was yaddayadda, to this boy, all these didn't matter to this little boy at all. Fashion trends and fads didn't mean a thing to him, and he just said what he felt.
I was thinking-- since when have we been given this chance to reflect on ourselves? On how much we, through our education, should have been learning to appreciate, and not to only want more? How much we should be aware of our surroundings not only to criticise it, but to give it its fue respect and compliments as well? After all, this GP question "All beautiful things in life are free" didn't come about for no reason.
But well, i guess maybe shutting up and studying would now be the best way to "appreciate" all beautiful things cuz without that A cert, everything would probably just look pretty much shitty.
So what?
Now that i finally know that im in deep shit, all my mother can say is how she is worried at my apparent "failure" due to my "decline". and how do you define this "decline"? by my watching of American Idol, just because it airs at 10pm ("too late!" she says). Just because I believe, very deeply, in having my Saturdays off. Just because i believe im not a machine, i cant work fucking 7 days a week;
just because i believe im HUMAN.
Great. Now even she doesnt believe in me. You know sometimes i think even though i dont think i can make it sometimes, it's always these few people building the foundations of my support that pushes me on. Yet...
Yet, stuff happens eh. I guess this is what happens when you stop running your race. Some people try to motivate you while running past, others who've always had this thing against you give you a kick or two, and no matter what happens, your mother's always there to give you an earful.
you know, i really wonder, what if i ever became an artist? What if i ever become a writer? Will i still be able to retain that same support ive been having over the years, not earning the same type of income as a lawyer or a doctor? Should i just have been some normal science student who'd grow up to love physiotherapy as much as her mother did? Well too bad (maybe for me more than anybody) life obviously doesn't work the way you want it all the time.
Actually, today i was supposed to blog about what happened on my way out of school after art.
While walking out, this mentally disabled boy (maybe about primary 5) was walking towards me, waving to someone/thing. I walked past him thinking of my school work, my screwed examinations, everything else except... him, i guess. then suddenly,
"Jie jie! Jie jie!"
I turned around and there he was, behind me.
"Hello, Hello!" He was right in front of me but he was shouting happily, waving.
"Hello." I smiled at him and waved back, but he wasn't satisfied with that. Repeating his "hellos" again, he waved his palm and touched his fingers to mine. I was surprised, but not overly perturbed.
I walked away, and then after 5 seconds or so i heard it again. "Jie Jie!" This time i wasn't sure whether he was referring to me, or whether i should respond. but after he repeated it i turned around. And from the distance he said,
"Jie Jie you are pretty."
And this was supposed to be about how this touched me deep within, not because someone had called me pretty, but because it gave me a reality check. While all this time the only things i had to say about my appearance was how long my face was, how big my bum was, how high my forehead was yaddayadda, to this boy, all these didn't matter to this little boy at all. Fashion trends and fads didn't mean a thing to him, and he just said what he felt.
I was thinking-- since when have we been given this chance to reflect on ourselves? On how much we, through our education, should have been learning to appreciate, and not to only want more? How much we should be aware of our surroundings not only to criticise it, but to give it its fue respect and compliments as well? After all, this GP question "All beautiful things in life are free" didn't come about for no reason.
But well, i guess maybe shutting up and studying would now be the best way to "appreciate" all beautiful things cuz without that A cert, everything would probably just look pretty much shitty.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Monday, May 19, 2008
tomorrow's gee pee HELP HELP HELP!!!
worse-- i just realised that whatever little time i would have left for last minute mugging would be taken up by all that Art coursework hours. sorry for the (extreme) wolsness, but even though i received the information about two weeks ago it only hit me ehh now. as in NOW.
ah well, im human if i do screw my mid years then it just means that ive got to start being more serious about my studies. consistency, while not being my utter weakness, is certainly not my strongest suit either.
Randomnosity
Here's my kitty!
Eeeps Kitty's showing his dingding.
Went to study at Tam Century Foodcourt today, and look what i got when i ate lunch! three chopsticks in my chopstick bag! okok wait chopstick bag doesnt sound right :/
And here's my other half trying to bring the high-waist-pant back into fashion
anyway i still owe jiayi 20 bucks T.T nevermind after ive paid that off im gonna to save (to spend) on two hawt pierre cardin bras on sale! yay!!!
new bras new jeans new hawt shorts new--
sorry i forgot i was supposed to be in freaked-out-before-examinations-mode. burrhs.
worse-- i just realised that whatever little time i would have left for last minute mugging would be taken up by all that Art coursework hours. sorry for the (extreme) wolsness, but even though i received the information about two weeks ago it only hit me ehh now. as in NOW.
ah well, im human if i do screw my mid years then it just means that ive got to start being more serious about my studies. consistency, while not being my utter weakness, is certainly not my strongest suit either.
Randomnosity
Here's my kitty!
Eeeps Kitty's showing his dingding.
Went to study at Tam Century Foodcourt today, and look what i got when i ate lunch! three chopsticks in my chopstick bag! okok wait chopstick bag doesnt sound right :/
And here's my other half trying to bring the high-waist-pant back into fashion
anyway i still owe jiayi 20 bucks T.T nevermind after ive paid that off im gonna to save (to spend) on two hawt pierre cardin bras on sale! yay!!!
new bras new jeans new hawt shorts new--
sorry i forgot i was supposed to be in freaked-out-before-examinations-mode. burrhs.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
I don't look at your current plight with glee.
It's just too bad that it reconfirms my worst fears about you.
As always.
Can't figure out a way to work my phone's bluetooth, so no piccies for yesterday i guess. Looks like its back to relying on my (and jiayi's, haha!) faithful ole camera. Then again-- we hardly take pictures together anymore :/ that's what happens when you're in love with a shy boy, haha!
Yesterday was a surprisingly non-typical going-out-with-Jingboy day, and we went to places like the art museum, the cathay and plaza sing instead of the usual haunts at bugis, wisma/heeren/orchard-in-general or vivo! And the best thing was that we had alot of fun all the same :)) No thanks to my &%@$ white wedges, which were out to KEEELL MEEEE.
(then again, Lisa has managed the unbelievable feat of wearing those goddamned shoes for one whole day!!! Whoo!!!)
My strengths lies in strength alone; the ability to fight on and persevere even in the face of obstacles, but your strengths lies in the depth of your character; the firmness of disposition.
You are my reason, I am your strength.
It's just too bad that it reconfirms my worst fears about you.
As always.
Can't figure out a way to work my phone's bluetooth, so no piccies for yesterday i guess. Looks like its back to relying on my (and jiayi's, haha!) faithful ole camera. Then again-- we hardly take pictures together anymore :/ that's what happens when you're in love with a shy boy, haha!
Yesterday was a surprisingly non-typical going-out-with-Jingboy day, and we went to places like the art museum, the cathay and plaza sing instead of the usual haunts at bugis, wisma/heeren/orchard-in-general or vivo! And the best thing was that we had alot of fun all the same :)) No thanks to my &%@$ white wedges, which were out to KEEELL MEEEE.
(then again, Lisa has managed the unbelievable feat of wearing those goddamned shoes for one whole day!!! Whoo!!!)
My strengths lies in strength alone; the ability to fight on and persevere even in the face of obstacles, but your strengths lies in the depth of your character; the firmness of disposition.
You are my reason, I am your strength.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Everything except Musical by
PopularDemand!
Really looking bad on Musical :(( I hope I dont look half as bad for the King Lear Project! Booo!
Shmuggled jingboy in on jiayi's ticket :))
Jacq's bdae prezzie! Aptly filled with beans because she's (as coined by jingboy x.x) "Jacq and the beanstalk" hahah?!
And Deb goes bonkers
Pregnant, Single, Underage. Any takers?
The only thing I like about this is its composition.
And after Musical (which stupidly ended like at 10++) a few of us headed down to Orchard's 24 hour Swensens to celebrate Jacq's and Jingboy's birthday. It was a pretty small affair, but after resting abit (and a cup of coffee for me haha) we were all pretty much happy we didn't go home yet :))
We got Jingboy a firehouse Ice cream and the staff there even sang him a birthday song!
Not to mention birthday prezzie handpicked by Dong Bin (Thanks!)
DESMOND!! no its jingboy haha.
Freaky calamari rings.
Then we played this extremely difficult number game and this was our yummilicious forfeit! Ingredients? Melted Ice cream, pepper, half a shaker of salt, two spoonfuls of mayonnaise, Chilli sauce, Parsley, cabbage, half eaten chocolate fudge, and anything else i cant remember. All we needed was the tissue haha. Yes and EVERYONE had at least a sip!
Off to shleeep. Nights! (My balloon shrank boo.)
PopularDemand!
Really looking bad on Musical :(( I hope I dont look half as bad for the King Lear Project! Booo!
Shmuggled jingboy in on jiayi's ticket :))
Jacq's bdae prezzie! Aptly filled with beans because she's (as coined by jingboy x.x) "Jacq and the beanstalk" hahah?!
And Deb goes bonkers
Pregnant, Single, Underage. Any takers?
The only thing I like about this is its composition.
And after Musical (which stupidly ended like at 10++) a few of us headed down to Orchard's 24 hour Swensens to celebrate Jacq's and Jingboy's birthday. It was a pretty small affair, but after resting abit (and a cup of coffee for me haha) we were all pretty much happy we didn't go home yet :))
We got Jingboy a firehouse Ice cream and the staff there even sang him a birthday song!
Not to mention birthday prezzie handpicked by Dong Bin (Thanks!)
DESMOND!! no its jingboy haha.
Freaky calamari rings.
Then we played this extremely difficult number game and this was our yummilicious forfeit! Ingredients? Melted Ice cream, pepper, half a shaker of salt, two spoonfuls of mayonnaise, Chilli sauce, Parsley, cabbage, half eaten chocolate fudge, and anything else i cant remember. All we needed was the tissue haha. Yes and EVERYONE had at least a sip!
Off to shleeep. Nights! (My balloon shrank boo.)
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