I know i keep promising pictures and not bringing them out, but seriously these days have been more tightly packed and its getting harder to post post post. which is a good thing!
I realise that alot of people are doing alot for me. Have realised. Did not realise then. Shucks I really feel bad about it all, especially when i take things for granted and want everything to be done my way. I can be such a fucking pain in the ass sometimes.
Dear you,
Thanks :)
(I am not making that much sense, too tired.) goodnight.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Annoying, but not annoyed
Brought a shitload of luggage to starbucks as if i was running away from home and forgot the most important stuffs
1) Pencil Sharpener (%$^#!)
2) Macbook Charger ( %$^#!!)
3) Earphones (%$^#!?!?!)
4) Jacket (%$^#!!!!! later)
Hopefully the mac doesnt die soon. Live Mac LIIIIIVE!!!!
Okay and had an encounter with a ridiculously stupid TPJC Total Bitch. I have pics of her! Later.
1) Pencil Sharpener (%$^#!)
2) Macbook Charger ( %$^#!!)
3) Earphones (%$^#!?!?!)
4) Jacket (%$^#!!!!! later)
Hopefully the mac doesnt die soon. Live Mac LIIIIIVE!!!!
Okay and had an encounter with a ridiculously stupid TPJC Total Bitch. I have pics of her! Later.
Reproductivity
Have just finished Norwegian Wood, its the kind of book I would like to hug to sleep at night; save for the fact that books, unlike boobs, are not made for hugging. That said i would definitely prefer hugging books rather than boobs regardless of whether they be girl boobs or man boobs (the horror!). I like it, I like Murakami (thanks Qi bi for the unconscious introduction! You have great book taste!) and I cant wait to get my hands on more of them; apparently this is barely even the tip of the iceberg!
Today was the kind of day where you feel good about yourself, where things that go wrong end the right way up, a sunshine day (though the weather was nice and chilly, not scorching as it has been the past few days). Managed to create a body scrub, workout at the gym, run, finish the book and spend loads of good ol' quality time with jingboy.
Ahh I did think this would be the life. Next time when we retire we ARE going to buy a little cottage looking house and cook carrot cake and vegetable soup and maggi mee and work on our art or design pieces and romp around the whole time till the cows come home. Im going to name one Patty and you can name the other one. We'll probably have a few cats and dogs and go broke/crazy feeding them. No rabbits they hump too much.
Im not kidding, photobucket is still down, blow me down. Thou shalt have to wait, ya fat arse.
Today was the kind of day where you feel good about yourself, where things that go wrong end the right way up, a sunshine day (though the weather was nice and chilly, not scorching as it has been the past few days). Managed to create a body scrub, workout at the gym, run, finish the book and spend loads of good ol' quality time with jingboy.
Ahh I did think this would be the life. Next time when we retire we ARE going to buy a little cottage looking house and cook carrot cake and vegetable soup and maggi mee and work on our art or design pieces and romp around the whole time till the cows come home. Im going to name one Patty and you can name the other one. We'll probably have a few cats and dogs and go broke/crazy feeding them. No rabbits they hump too much.
Im not kidding, photobucket is still down, blow me down. Thou shalt have to wait, ya fat arse.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
There can be Miracles...
I NEED MUNNEH
I NEED MAH HUNNEH
I NEEDTA STOP BUMMENH
I NEED A HAIREEAH HEAHD
Im sick and tired of resting my bum and watching it grow bigger at home. I swear if i keep this up it wouldnt be able to fit through the plane door in august. Tomorrow am going to start my first sketch at the local library and start my DAILY WEEKDAY EXERCISE ROUTINE. I'll have to do at least one activity of the available choices below or suffer $2 reduction in pocket money.
1) Run 10 rounds at the stadium or equivalent (about half an hour)
2) Play soccer
3) Gym for at least 2 hours (i normally leave after one.)
4) Swim 15 100m Laps
Am going to start small if it works out well Im going to extend it to weekends too. Will chart my exercise regime/ savings plan!
Also, am going to limit myself to no more than $100 worth of shopping allowance a month! Ive obviously busted my budget for this month (WAAAAAY PAST CAP) so no more foolish squandaries; at least till the beginning of next month!
Will uplaod all piccies in a second post tonight, I AM SO FIRED UP AND READY TO ROLLLL!!!
I NEED MAH HUNNEH
I NEEDTA STOP BUMMENH
I NEED A HAIREEAH HEAHD
Im sick and tired of resting my bum and watching it grow bigger at home. I swear if i keep this up it wouldnt be able to fit through the plane door in august. Tomorrow am going to start my first sketch at the local library and start my DAILY WEEKDAY EXERCISE ROUTINE. I'll have to do at least one activity of the available choices below or suffer $2 reduction in pocket money.
1) Run 10 rounds at the stadium or equivalent (about half an hour)
2) Play soccer
3) Gym for at least 2 hours (i normally leave after one.)
4) Swim 15 100m Laps
Am going to start small if it works out well Im going to extend it to weekends too. Will chart my exercise regime/ savings plan!
Also, am going to limit myself to no more than $100 worth of shopping allowance a month! Ive obviously busted my budget for this month (WAAAAAY PAST CAP) so no more foolish squandaries; at least till the beginning of next month!
Will uplaod all piccies in a second post tonight, I AM SO FIRED UP AND READY TO ROLLLL!!!
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Purgatory
Disillusionment has hit me hard; Ive recently started doubting every minute thing in the people whom i would have previously put my life on the line for. The feeling is distasteful; I feel like a perpetually have a lump in my throat when it comes to being open about my affection and my concerns. How do you say things that people pretend to accept, but secretly reject? How can you befriend people who profess the world, but don't know your day to day worries? Worse; how could I have mistaken all that for a genuine friendship?
I'm not even referring directly to my friendship with people in the workplace; this is a statement that has held uncannily true in all areas of my life; save for two. And with every mounting failure my insecurities have soared higher and higher-- is there something wrong with me? Why do people act that way? Why am I constantly misinterpreted? I seem to lack the accurate self-knowledge to identify the problem, and like a woman 'without wood' I bend easily to the whispers of the world; friend or foe.
But with every broken promise is a stronger self. The strength to have courage; even in the face of fire. Courage to look back, courage to look forward, courage to move forward. Without wood, like the weeds, I'll reach forward, I'll crawl forward, till the day I die. Even if death is nothing but a nihilistic regression, I don't have any better idea at this point of time than to move forward.
forward, and onward.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Spoilers Ahead
ARGH CAN'T BELIEVE ADAM LAMBERT DIDNT WIN!
Kris is great but he isn't quite the willy wonka or mad hatter as adam. It's a pity, I thought everyone was expecting adam to win! Okay then again I've not even caught a full episode the whole season, so who am i to say who's who eh?
Meeting Jiayi and Deb and hopefully evan later; it'll be great to catch up after hiding in my house throughout the entire renovation and totally being out of touch with the rest of the world. Gwen and Van, Im joining you guys on saturday at ECP! And Im probably going for a medical checkup tomorrow; hope everything turns out fine.
Dang I just got scratched by my cat on my nose. stupid cat.
Kris is great but he isn't quite the willy wonka or mad hatter as adam. It's a pity, I thought everyone was expecting adam to win! Okay then again I've not even caught a full episode the whole season, so who am i to say who's who eh?
Meeting Jiayi and Deb and hopefully evan later; it'll be great to catch up after hiding in my house throughout the entire renovation and totally being out of touch with the rest of the world. Gwen and Van, Im joining you guys on saturday at ECP! And Im probably going for a medical checkup tomorrow; hope everything turns out fine.
Dang I just got scratched by my cat on my nose. stupid cat.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I AM GOING TO GOLDSMITHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Am going to miss you very much, Cheng Jing Xin :(((
Kitty-on-Loan: The End of your Roach Worries!
I wish I could bring kitty with me to London. He is, after all, my cat. And if I cant ship neither my family nor jingboy over, i could use some kittykat company.
Plus he is the greatest roach buster of all time; i couldnt find the stinking thing after ransacking my whole room and he was like "Shniff Shniff somethings intresthing behind the cupboard". After shifting the cupboard he caught the roach in seconds and held it in his mouth like a prize. Would probably play with it, tearing every limb apart before eating it if my father didnt just throw it in the bin.
Tomorrow is my phone interview by Goldsmiths; argh! Wish me luck!
Plus he is the greatest roach buster of all time; i couldnt find the stinking thing after ransacking my whole room and he was like "Shniff Shniff somethings intresthing behind the cupboard". After shifting the cupboard he caught the roach in seconds and held it in his mouth like a prize. Would probably play with it, tearing every limb apart before eating it if my father didnt just throw it in the bin.
Tomorrow is my phone interview by Goldsmiths; argh! Wish me luck!
Monday, May 18, 2009
Badly Awakened
It is time that I learn that not everyone is worthy of the same amount of trust, no matter how friendly or genuine they may seem to be at first. This latest one is far from being the first time that my open nature was taken advantage of; and it probably wouldn't be my last at this rate. I'm sick and tired of trusting people and believing they'll always act in my best interests, and later learning that the feeling was never mutual.
It's so true what they say; don't wear your heart on your sleeve at work, or for that matter almost everywhere else. People are thus less disinclined to give it a light stab when they feel like doing so.
A lesson learnt a little too late, but nevertheless learnt as well. In retrospect, at least I know what to look out for when I start teaching; though I'm certain then that office politics will take on a whole new level of ugliness. I got what I wanted out of this job; it was fun working there from start to the end and I learnt something about work and life that I had never been taught throughout all 12 years of study.
It's so true what they say; don't wear your heart on your sleeve at work, or for that matter almost everywhere else. People are thus less disinclined to give it a light stab when they feel like doing so.
A lesson learnt a little too late, but nevertheless learnt as well. In retrospect, at least I know what to look out for when I start teaching; though I'm certain then that office politics will take on a whole new level of ugliness. I got what I wanted out of this job; it was fun working there from start to the end and I learnt something about work and life that I had never been taught throughout all 12 years of study.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Backstabbed
And this is solid proof that i wouldn't last one episode of "Survivor", haha. Thanks to Jingboy and Jiayi who were here for me when I needed you guys-- made a bitter pill a lot less hard to swallow.
Time to start my portfolio! (NOW there really is no excuse not to.)
Time to start my portfolio! (NOW there really is no excuse not to.)
Saturday, May 16, 2009
2D1N Stay with BBQ Included
Courtesy of my house's disastrous and inconvenient environment, I went to Jingboy's place for a night and we managed to make it into a little getaway from all the hunundrums of life. It was totally refreshing, entirely enjoyable and deliciously escapist. I sound like a tour touter, haha. But seriously! We didn't need to get out of Singapore to enjoy ourselves the un-Singaporean way, eating, chatting, and basically not worrying about deadlines, interviews and the like.
The upcoming UWC coming up is giving JX's place a dust problem too with all that construction.
Our BBQ started off as a potential failure; we lacked so many BBQ essentials (whilst having way too much food) and couldn't get the fire started initially. But, all's well that ends well!
Yummy looking... fire starters?!
The art of skewering chickys, I am le mastahh!!!
Slow but steady wins the race.
Some of the food. By the end of the whole thing we realised that we didnt eat about $10 worth of food. Hahaha kiasu.
Stuffing my face first!
Sad looking (and not that delicious) cheese hotdogs.
And finally, we get to eating together! Three cockroaches and a cat came to join the party.
Nom nom nom.
Ouch.
And back at the house!
Tired!
Lovelovelove :3 These 2 days were fantastic, and it all wouldnt have been without you.
The upcoming UWC coming up is giving JX's place a dust problem too with all that construction.
Our BBQ started off as a potential failure; we lacked so many BBQ essentials (whilst having way too much food) and couldn't get the fire started initially. But, all's well that ends well!
Yummy looking... fire starters?!
The art of skewering chickys, I am le mastahh!!!
Slow but steady wins the race.
Some of the food. By the end of the whole thing we realised that we didnt eat about $10 worth of food. Hahaha kiasu.
Stuffing my face first!
Sad looking (and not that delicious) cheese hotdogs.
And finally, we get to eating together! Three cockroaches and a cat came to join the party.
Nom nom nom.
Ouch.
And back at the house!
Tired!
Lovelovelove :3 These 2 days were fantastic, and it all wouldnt have been without you.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
There It Goes.
So I did something stupid today. I went to bathe at the temporary toilet today and forgot to take my toiletries back home with me after doing so. Which includes the Clinique face wash.
Of course (though I had pretty high false hopes), my clinique face wash happily flew away into the loving embrace of its new owner in the same block. Unless a bangladeshi worker took it, of course. Being lighthearted about this has nothing to do with magnanimity; it's just that baths tend to wash away all grouses and complaints together with the day's worth of dirt. I hope against hopes that the person who needs it is less fortunate than me (sour grapes), and that this is in fact a blessing in diguise (SOUR SOUR SOUR GRAPES). Ah well, more reason to shop tomorrow or friday!
I think I know what it means to be happy.
When I think of you I feel like bursting out in smiles, or like doing a little jiggle, or simply rubbing my tummy. Because that's where it all is, all that heady and intoxicating euphoria clamped in the depths of my soul that's just dying to be let out. I guess it seeps out of my nostrils, or from the pores on my skin, because if i hold it any longer i might just explode.
oh, heavy head, happy heart. I feel yellow.
Of course (though I had pretty high false hopes), my clinique face wash happily flew away into the loving embrace of its new owner in the same block. Unless a bangladeshi worker took it, of course. Being lighthearted about this has nothing to do with magnanimity; it's just that baths tend to wash away all grouses and complaints together with the day's worth of dirt. I hope against hopes that the person who needs it is less fortunate than me (sour grapes), and that this is in fact a blessing in diguise (SOUR SOUR SOUR GRAPES). Ah well, more reason to shop tomorrow or friday!
I think I know what it means to be happy.
When I think of you I feel like bursting out in smiles, or like doing a little jiggle, or simply rubbing my tummy. Because that's where it all is, all that heady and intoxicating euphoria clamped in the depths of my soul that's just dying to be let out. I guess it seeps out of my nostrils, or from the pores on my skin, because if i hold it any longer i might just explode.
oh, heavy head, happy heart. I feel yellow.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
My baby is in the house!
My house the day the renovation started; it turned into a refugee camp.
And just before you claim that gwen is seeing things, here is THE refugee's toilet! Haha!
The terrified cat seeking some company,
And yes, the macbook has officially ARRIVED!!!
Some camwhoring with photobooth.
Sorry if the picture sizes are off, im trying to fix all the problems and hopefully I'll get them to their normal size by night. Looks like it's back to the drawing board. Ahh there we go. Iphoto sucks.
These days Ive been spending hours on end just reorganizing and repairing self induced technical glitches-- attempts to bring my prior pc life back to normal on a mac. It's been difficult but nothing is too difficult for a girl who has too much time on her hands and too little money to go out shopping.
Thursday is going to be a bang; shan't tell you what's happening but you guys will sniff it out anyway! Yippee I can't wait I can't wait!
And just before you claim that gwen is seeing things, here is THE refugee's toilet! Haha!
The terrified cat seeking some company,
And yes, the macbook has officially ARRIVED!!!
Some camwhoring with photobooth.
These days Ive been spending hours on end just reorganizing and repairing self induced technical glitches-- attempts to bring my prior pc life back to normal on a mac. It's been difficult but nothing is too difficult for a girl who has too much time on her hands and too little money to go out shopping.
Thursday is going to be a bang; shan't tell you what's happening but you guys will sniff it out anyway! Yippee I can't wait I can't wait!
Tan Hong Ming
Got this off Phy's blog. If you don't play this you dont know what you're missing! It's a Malaysian commercial and it's pretty self-explanatory :)) I noticed it's something about designers (or friends of mine who are designers) They all like watching commercials!
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Toilet Renovation
The only way to beat loud drilling noises is loud music.
SHUT UP AND LET ME GO, HEY!
SHUT UP AND LET ME GO, HEY!
Annoyed
okay will probably close mowyourlawn cuz Im too lazy to bring everything over manually, so Underwater world it is!
I dont really know what I'm fretting about, seriously. Im pissed off for multiple reasons, one-- my boyfriend is totally insecure, two-- im so fucking impatient when it comes to insecurity issues, three-- im tired from two long days at work and lastly-- all the incessant worrying that ive been doing over every and anything that's thought-worthy.
Everyone's got so many different views regarding the scholarship, which at this point of time isn't really helping. It ANNOYS me that the moment i talk about it some ditzs would immediately come to the conclusion that Im there for this great party, to hook up with all the white boys and to go get myself dead drunk in the world's hottest party scene. I am NOT. I am there to study, and I am VERY HAPPY DOING THAT THANK YOU VERY MUCH. I dont need some sexually deprived self esteem boost and im not on the road to pleasure island either.
Once, this smart ass promptly replied "Won't you be tempted?" when I told her of the scholarship. I was so offended; I mean what?! Like just because you're in a different place and you're away from home means you can be the 'epitome' of your Other-- this debauched version of yourself taking pleasure in sins formerly unknown and unattainable to you? where is your frigging sense of dignity and identity, especially since she knows I have a boyfriend and yet assumes that i'll be suitably spoilt for choice and eagerly looking for a replacement in white haven london?
I guess this is something Im going to have to learn about public opinion. you cant really take it too seriously (especially if the people you talk to obviously dont know shit 1)about you or 2)about London) even though ive been doing that for a lifetime. I'll have to try to stop being so affected by it, throw out the trash and instead listen to people who try actually giving SOUND advice, or who are concerned enough to do that.
On the other hand, I really appreciate all of you whove been so supportive of my getting the scholarship. Thanks for all the cheers and congratulations, and for all the good advice :) especially my mum, whose been like the pillar of support all this while.
Anyway, if you don't yet know, my application for the MOE Teaching Scholarship to Goldmiths University in London has been approved :)) Now all i need to do is to get an approval from Goldsmiths, and I'll be off to uk for 4 years in August!
I dont really know what I'm fretting about, seriously. Im pissed off for multiple reasons, one-- my boyfriend is totally insecure, two-- im so fucking impatient when it comes to insecurity issues, three-- im tired from two long days at work and lastly-- all the incessant worrying that ive been doing over every and anything that's thought-worthy.
Everyone's got so many different views regarding the scholarship, which at this point of time isn't really helping. It ANNOYS me that the moment i talk about it some ditzs would immediately come to the conclusion that Im there for this great party, to hook up with all the white boys and to go get myself dead drunk in the world's hottest party scene. I am NOT. I am there to study, and I am VERY HAPPY DOING THAT THANK YOU VERY MUCH. I dont need some sexually deprived self esteem boost and im not on the road to pleasure island either.
Once, this smart ass promptly replied "Won't you be tempted?" when I told her of the scholarship. I was so offended; I mean what?! Like just because you're in a different place and you're away from home means you can be the 'epitome' of your Other-- this debauched version of yourself taking pleasure in sins formerly unknown and unattainable to you? where is your frigging sense of dignity and identity, especially since she knows I have a boyfriend and yet assumes that i'll be suitably spoilt for choice and eagerly looking for a replacement in white haven london?
I guess this is something Im going to have to learn about public opinion. you cant really take it too seriously (especially if the people you talk to obviously dont know shit 1)about you or 2)about London) even though ive been doing that for a lifetime. I'll have to try to stop being so affected by it, throw out the trash and instead listen to people who try actually giving SOUND advice, or who are concerned enough to do that.
On the other hand, I really appreciate all of you whove been so supportive of my getting the scholarship. Thanks for all the cheers and congratulations, and for all the good advice :) especially my mum, whose been like the pillar of support all this while.
Anyway, if you don't yet know, my application for the MOE Teaching Scholarship to Goldmiths University in London has been approved :)) Now all i need to do is to get an approval from Goldsmiths, and I'll be off to uk for 4 years in August!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Ohficial
mowyourlawn.wordpress.com
for some frigging privacy!
the difference between blogger and wordpress is like the difference between bathing in a cubicle and in the underwater world.
for some frigging privacy!
the difference between blogger and wordpress is like the difference between bathing in a cubicle and in the underwater world.
Friday, May 1, 2009
Pierce
Dinner with Gwen and Jingboy was fun.
Am feeling highly distressed.
soaked my clothes. will wash tomorrow.
Queasy. vomited before meeting and feel like doing so now.
just realised ive got 'unbearable' spelled wrong.
if I'm like that in singapore... would i be reduced to mush by the sheer solitude i am bound to face in uk?
erase erase erase
anyway was happy yesterday im officially in ntu's adm.
Am feeling highly distressed.
soaked my clothes. will wash tomorrow.
Queasy. vomited before meeting and feel like doing so now.
just realised ive got 'unbearable' spelled wrong.
if I'm like that in singapore... would i be reduced to mush by the sheer solitude i am bound to face in uk?
erase erase erase
anyway was happy yesterday im officially in ntu's adm.
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